The age of the patron returns

Patreon.com, Indieagogo.com, and Kickstarter.com are the biggest threat to the megastar, and that’s a good thing.

Amanda Palmer is my favorite artist that no one has ever heard of. I read her book, I listen to her music, and when I can I donate to her. Most people I know have something similar, like my friend Danny who is a proud backer of board games on Kickstarter, or my brother Alex who will support different YouTube channels on Patreon. Most people have what I call a pocket artist, someone who is famous to only a small group of people.

Wait what is a megastar?

Think Kanye West, Hemingway, or J.K. Rowling. Celebrities known to the vast majority of the population, and supported by  a slew of team members of their respective industries. For decades they were the gold standard. The model was simple but highly capitalistic, and made only a few people able to make a living off what they love to do.

Now thanks to people who make monthly donations, people who would have spent years working in a coffee shop, can make a living, although often a modest one, working as artists, musicians and the like.

 

To sum it up. It’s a good time to be a creative.

The author osbcura returns: AKA I have been on Hiatus

I have been away. I am sorry. I am planning on bringing back the Japan trip, and I am going to try and update this blog weekly. If possible every Wednesday.

Inside out: the tyranny of joy

So last night I saw inside out. I walked in with expectations. I didn’t realize this until half way through when I decided to try and put them aside.

When I did I was struck hard by the core message of the film. Pixar taught me something. They taught me, all emotions have a place in your life.

It is a common myth that if you are not eternally joyful something is wrong. But each emotion plays a significant role in us as humans.
Anyhow small update. Having a bleh week. Thanks for reading.

The art of asking in practice

Today I asked to eat lunch before I went out to get the crew theirs. as it turns out the problem had resolved itself, but I asked. It’s then I heard her, Amanda Palmer, her voice resonating in her skull the same voice I Read her book in. I always make up a voice in my head for the narrator in the books I read, but I don’t choose how its sounds the story chooses. I almost don’t want to hear the author speak in real life after I’ve made up the thought voice. Anyhow, I heard her, and she was cheering me on, cheering me on for asking for yesterday off and for feeling my rage, my annoyance, and not just swallowing it and moving on. I am actually proud of myself for the first time in a long time.

So here we are, and I am sorry

I have been a selfish blogger. Here I am casting my words off into the void, and people are reading them and liking them, and not having the common decency to sit down and communicate. Communication is key.

I had a very odd set of beliefs in my head. These beliefs rotated around the idea that the artist and the fan had to be separate that they couldn’t mingle, like the potatoes and gravy, they were connected, but only cheap idiosyncratic artists interacted.

Oh, what a heathen I have been. If you read my blog I wanted to thank you for doing so, and I want to follow yours, and I want to read about your life,  I want to connect. I want to be there with you. So yes, I have been a fat head, but I saw the light.

Thanks, Amanda Palmer, you are changing my life.

I thought I wanted to be a famous writer, you taught me what I really wanted was to be a connected one.

PS: I am gonna upload the last post of my travel blog soon. It will be a doozy, so I am gonna do it in 2-3 bits. Stay tuned.

Sorry For the Radio Silence

I am having a really tough time lately. I took a mental health day today, saw Jurrasic World, (it was glorious by the way), and marched up to the home plate in League of Legends only to be defeated every game I played. So now I am updating this blog.

I want to start posting some stories I write on here, and also some pen/stationary reviews. Maybe a few more personal rants, but I am thinking about cutting it down to 3x a week. Thoughts?

The struggle to finish this section of the travel blog

So here I am missing many days of posting, and it all comes down to the fact I don’t know what to post as the final entries.

The trip was for 11 days not 8, but three of those days I spent without really taking many photos, or sick in a room, so it wasn’t compelling writing. I didn’t count those days as parts of my trip. It’s funny but 2.5 days of my trip were spent in Non-japan transit, so yes, that is my confession, and I am sorry if my labeling of these things was a bit off. Mostly I got confused where one day’s photos ended and another’s began.

But then back to my main issue, the issue I have with trying to end this little adventure.

Their is a haunting conversation that goes on in my head when I am about to finish things, it goes like this.

“I am almost done! I am really happy with how this turned out.”

“yeah but now what?”

“what do you mean?”

“how do you top this? Grow your fan base? Get approval?”

“…”

Approval. I find myself more and more disgusted by the idea of it. or at least the search for it. Nonetheless, the feelings of ineptitude, and fraudulence creep in, and I leave the ends loose, because god forbid I have to start again.

Where do I go from here? I don’t know. I’d love to lie to myself and be positive, but Japan was a highlight in my life, and now I find myself doing little to nothing.

I am being overly harsh. Part of me knows this, part of me is still struggling with just getting up in the morning, and dealing with that annoying voice in my head that tells me I can’t do anything.

I want to finish, and I will. I just am not ready yet. But thanks for being there. Thank you for reading. If you have it to give, please leave me some support in the comments. I could use it. Thanks.

I am slacking off

So today is one of those days, and yesterday I am slacking off. I am just tired. I am feeling strung out, and restless, I need more caffeine.

So my stock of photos from Japan is dwindling, but here I am wanting to write. Where My blog will go I don’t know but today, I am going to sip on coffee, and contemplate how much I hate cloudy weather.

Osaka Night 7: The visual styling of Downtown Osaka.

2013-10-29 18.49.02Osaka was lovely at night, and seeking wilder things I strode out on the town.

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I found a cat! IMG_1410 IMG_1411 IMG_1412 IMG_1413 IMG_1414 IMG_1415 IMG_1417

I was tempted to stay in this cube hotel but then I remembered my comfy hotel room bed. IMG_1418

Little America at night is quite fun, and is full of Japanese hipsters. I ran into a Frenchman on the street and we discussed our travel visa’s. Interestingly, his from France was 6 months without even proof of employment, while most people from the US can only have a 90 day. IMG_1420 IMG_1421 IMG_1422

Some seriously great lighting. IMG_1423

The statue of liberty on top of an apartment complex…okee. IMG_1424

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Hipster bookstore with that kitty outside from before! IMG_1427

He meowed at me. IMG_1428

There was another stray hiding in the Shadows.
IMG_1433 IMG_1432 IMG_1431 IMG_1435Visual spectacle overload overtook me as I took these last shots, and so I sent myself off to bed. More next week dear reader!

Day 7: The Redlight District at 10am

Not knowing Japanese has its downsides. Like stumbling into the red light district. Luckily, Japan’s red-light districts are not like most places, even the seediest areas are unusually safe. While some might claim this is because of Japan’s naturally low crime rate, others point out Japan’s notorious under-reporting of crimes. The truth lies somewhere in the middle.

But I am getting ahead of myself. I found myself in little America. It’s a section of Osaka that is meant to mirror the United States. It was quite early still so it was mostly empty. That being said a fountain had been vandalized with soap bubbles and the scattered remains of a party were evident in the main square. Being oh so cultured, I bought a Japanese Coke and found it tasted only slightly different, with an emphasis on spice over sweet.

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The Fed Ex of Japan!
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F#$k the rules!
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My friend translated this to be literally fat entertainment. It was a brothel dedicated to those who enjoy the company of overweight women though the women on the poster aren’t all that fat in comparison to people from the states.
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This is a Christmas-themed love hotel. Love hotels are not brothels believe it or not, most of their customers are actually couples who can’t get privacy otherwise. Japanese culture is both lax and strict about sex
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Japan’s or Osaka’s version of a most-wanted poster. I like that the people they caught had little X’s put over them, like some version of criminal bingo.
IMG_1321I got  a Japanese handkerchief. These are mostly used to wrap things in order to carry them more easily!

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A seemingly abandoned school archery range. IMG_1340

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One of my favorite things about japan were all the little shops tucked in places that were completely out of the way. It added to the sense of mysticism.
IMG_1347 IMG_1346 IMG_1342 IMG_1338One of Osaka’s famous stand up sushi parlors!

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These adorable little fish…these are the deadly delicacy known as Fugu. I refrained from eating any during the trip as A. I didn’t want to die, and B. It was 60-80 dollars for the small edible piece of an otherwise adorable fish.

After a quick foray back to my hotel, I decided to catch a subway train and soak up some of Osaka’s history. More, tomorrow dear reader.